Oneness
Dr. Vil-Am Ben A‘Him, Co-director of YAHWEH Academy of Light
Just recently I had the opportunity to attend a family reunion. Visiting with cousins and aunts and uncles many I hadn’t seen in over 20 years. It was great fun and brought up all sorts of old feelings from my childhood. Many were great memories of fun times yet also what surfaced were feelings of how through most of my life how I never felt I fit in, how I never felt I belonged. I had many feelings of being an outsider of not feeling as if I was from here. I found ways of coping as the years went by yet feeling a part of this world was difficult.
As I began to seek and explore deeper truths one that stood out for me was the concept, we are all one. Yes, as a man of science I new all of us were made of the same building blocks of atoms and molecules and in the study of quantum physics that understanding went even deeper, But still on a personal level it was difficult to reconcile these feelings of separateness, difference and aloneness.
In the mid seventies, this inner conflict and other personal problems had risen to a rather acute state and my life was falling apart. This existential dilemma brought me to visit a spiritual teacher or guru who was visiting from India. I had known little about eastern teachings, was very skeptical, stubborn and quite proud wondering how anyone could really know my pain and know any real truth about this crazy mixed up world.
I first went to a several day retreat where I learned some meditation and listened to many talks by his disciples that we nice but I still was in a deeply self-indulgent and depressed state.
On the last day the guru did a special transmission of energy that was for centuries only given to the most advanced students after years of study. He said that times had changed and it was important for many now to be awakened to the truth of their being.
As I received my transmission , my mind was going wild, “how could I be worthy or even ready for this- this is really hooky it can’t real, he can’t be--- Suddenly I began breathing very rapidly and was actually watching myself breath these shallow rapid breaths that brought no fear actually just a deep sense of peace. Just as suddenly my breathing stopped and I didn’t breath nor felt I had to for—well it seemed like forever. I drifted in this wonderful space of peace knowing that all was perfect in that moment, even I was perfect just as I was. My body began to make spontaneous movements stretches or Yoga postures coupled with or without breathing, all with me watching, fascinated, in a state of bliss. This went on for several hours and left me in a state of beyond mind. Nothing made sense yet it didn’t matter.
That evening there was a special program at the local university for the general public and I somehow found myself there. There were talks and a little meditation that I have no memory of. I do remember being in a line going up to the guru to get a special greeting.
As my turn arrived I dropped to my knees and touched his feet he grabbed my head tilting it upward removed his sunglasses, which he always wore, and looked me straight in the eye.
I immediately felt as though I had been plugged into a light socket not just connected to the power supply that comes into my house but directly into the entire power plant. My heart which previously had felt like a steel gate that was bolted and chained for protection, burst like a backed up dam sending a tsunami of love showering everything everywhere. Some people had to pick me up to take me out of the way of the rest of the line. I had no concept of my body, no concept of time. I saw all as this shimmering bluish-white light. There was no separation or boundary between my arm and the chair next to me, they were both made of this light. I saw this pair of very old well worn and used tennis shoes and I loved them, they and I were one. Person after person I saw as pulsating lights came up to me desiring a hug each of us breaking into hysterical laughter. I felt such peace, such love and knew all was in divine perfection and indeed we were all one.
My thoughts were like words on sign of lights moving across the fringes of my consciousness. I could look at them or not for they were not who I was they were just thoughts. After an unknown period of time (there was no concept of time) the first thought that got my attention and also began to bring me back to this dimension, was “I wonder how long this will last?” Slowly I returned to my regular self but was totally changed. I had been blessed with a experience of oneness not just the information but a knowingness. I knew now that I desired to live in that space of connectedness and knew that in order to do that I had to let go of any of my identifications with limited consciousness. I had to remove anything that was not of me, the real me.
The reality of all of us is this light this love that exists as the truth of our being all we are doing is choosing to identify with who we are not.
We are all one!
About the Author
Dr. Vil-Am Ben A‘Him has been a Chiropractor for 29 years using cranialsacral and deeper energy techniques to help people get to and release the seed concepts and fears that have lead to their physical and emotional pain. He conducts seminars and a workshop based on these empowering ideas and is co-director with his wife Yashoda of the Yahweh Academy of Light.