Resisting the Present Moment
Dr. Vil-Am Ben A‘Him, Co-director of YAHWEH Academy of Light
The instant I stopped resisting the present moment, I became free of the
painbody. In other words, when I had let go of my expectations that this moment
should be different than what was actually happening, (i.e. the physical changes
in the body, the changes in my thoughts, the change in my mood and emotions),
all symptoms, physical, mental and emotional pain dissolved. I felt normal
again. When I say "normal" I mean present, rather than the "unconscious normal."
The painbody of course feeds the ego, the very structure that lives on
identification and separation. To rise above the female painbody, collective
female unconsciousness, bring your attention into the body, by feeling the
energy, sensations, created by emotions, thoughts. It is also important to stop
identifying with all the labels, judgments, interpretations that may arise in
the mind. Be the space, the unconditional love, for the arising painbody. In the
full acceptance of what is, comes peace. Then the sensations experienced in the
body become fuel for presence. I now feel gratitude and fulfillment in my
experiences as a woman (menses, pregnancy and menopause); my role as a mother
had provided an opportunity to demonstrate unconditional love; and now I feel
the Goddess within, that is to say, the realization of my spiritual essence, who
I really am, that lives and experiences itself through my female form
Because shortly after entering into the relationship with Eckhart, I became
aware of all my expectations of what a relationship "should look and be like."
At first, I tried to place those expectations onto him, as well as myself,
internally demanding that they be fulfilled. Suddenly, I realized that I was not
having a real relationship. Rather, I was having a "relationship with an idea"
in my head.
With the concept of "relationship" come expectations, memories of past
relationships, and further personally and culturally conditioned mental concepts
of what a relationship should be. I had learned that with each idea, expectation,
I had about a "relationship," I suffered. When I became free of my ideas of
relationship, there was peace. A sense of lightness began to flow within the
relationship and within myself. Finally, deep within myself, I understood that
there are no relationships. There is only the present moment, and in the moment
there is only relating. This, I would say, is true love, true relationship.
About the Author
Dr. Vil-Am Ben A‘Him has been a Chiropractor for 29 years using cranialsacral and deeper energy techniques to help people get to and release the seed concepts and fears that have lead to their physical and emotional pain. He conducts seminars and a workshop based on these empowering ideas and is co-director with his wife Yashoda of the Yahweh Academy of Light.